How Do You Forget About Your Own Blog?

Today I had intended on creating a post for my church friends. I wanted to share something that was too lengthy to share in a classroom setting, so I thought I would post it and they could read at their discretion. For one of my religion classes, my capstone project was creating a blog about The Book of Mormon. My intent was to keep that going, but that intention failed miserably. So in my head I thought I would revamp that blog a little, and put my post in there. Now . . . the question became – where to find it?  I had created that in the winter of 2018/2019. “Blogger” entered my mind and I found it! And I found something else . . . . my personal blog LIVE. PERIOD. staring me in the face.

Oh. I already had a blog. I mean . . . . I already had a personal blog, not a school assignment blog. I spent 2 hours re-reading every post that I had entered. How could I have forgotten about this? February 2020 – my last post. I really am astonished that 4 years and 6 months had gone by without a single entry. And then again, maybe I should not be surprised. No entries in 2012, and subsequent years after that only had 1 entry – with the exception of 2017, a very busy year of learning things through my divorce. I could write off the explanation and say those were very dark years for me, and they were in so many ways, but I was still living, right? Kyra graduated in 2012, Erica in 2014 and Jake in 2016 – lots of stuff going on.

I can’t even use COVID, which kicked up a notch in March 2020, as an excuse, because my life wasn’t altered drastically like others. In fact, because public meetings (church) were canceled, I had more time than ever to write. And I had plenty to write about!

Anyway, glad I found it. The content is valuable to me, and I hope to begin anew at creating more meaningful content about my journey. 

My letters and photos will help me remember what filled my life during that time period, but I felt a loss of not documenting more carefully. It would be nice to ‘backfill’ but I don’t feel confident that I will. It’s September 22, 2024 and I need to write what’s in my head right now.