Monday, May 9, 2011

Mother's Day

I was feeling grumpy Saturday after spending time at my mom's house for a BBQ. I have 2 step sisters that are absolutely stunning and a Size 4 to boot. I try not to compare myself, for I know perfectly well my body was never meant to be that size, but I was low enough today to throw myself a little pity party and be frustrated with my body size. That feeling doubled when I couldn't even put on an anklet made for Barbie's foot. It was refreshing to attend Church and be reminded of what really matters. I left feeling an overwhelming sense of gratitude for all I have and enjoy on a daily basis. Because of my passion for pictures, I've been able to freeze time over the years and reminisce visually all the places Ive been able to explore and capture priceless expressions on my children's faces. Yes, a healthy body does matter...don't get me wrong. But there are times when I'm striving to eat right and exercise and meet weight goals that seem to take A LOT of my focus for the day, not to mention expending resources. And I don't think that's great either because it takes away from other important things. Someday I will find a balance, but I refuse to wallow until I get there. Adam called home at 7:00 tonight for his bi-annual phone call home. We talked for over an hour about what he's been doing in Kentucky, and getting him updated on home. What topped off my day were the sweet, personal Mother's Day gifts: a cuddly teddy bear from Kyra which she told me the day before "you so want this," a Psych T-shirt from Erica ("I've heard it both ways"), a note from Jacob telling me I wouldn't have to remind him to practice his clarinet and do his homework for the remainder of the school year and "travel money" from Bill. Life has been sweet and delicious..... despite the extra poundage I carry with me.

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